I just too used you by my side

20.7.07

Is rusted at home a good thing? or go out to socialize with people?

wasn't it true to have mobile phone only when people need to find you?

Since my phone hadn't been ringing for almost a week, do i need to cancel it ?

Will anyone notice if i really do so ?Doubt it.....

Sometimes, people fed up easily. It’s because that the people around you act like they are really free and doesn’t really care about the matter.

Wonder why they can always find those stupid excuses to avoid their responsibility.

They are really different from who I used to know last time.

One very responsible and willing to stay back and we get the things done together no matter how late.

I really amazed by her talent. Not too long, just few semesters ago.

She managed to come out many ideas that helped our group to score in the coursework.

Eventually, I bet her brain has stopped working or exhausted. From last 2 semesters, she began to show her laziness. Hah, I bet this is a signal that sent from the above to warn me not to be with her in a group in all coming group assignments, because ever since that time, she took everything and everyone for granted.

“I’m very tired, can I go off now?”

“Suddenly I recall there’s sth that I need to settle it urgently, I go loh, you guys do the work 1^st, and the rest I TRY to catch up, bye bye.”

Tired of her excuses. All very stupid. Everyone tired, but only she can come out all the grievance and leave.

The situation from bad to worst after the existence of another girl.

Gosh, even blind men know what’s going on to both of you okay?

Well, I wouldn’t comment on this part since everyone has their own right to choose what they like what they don’t like. Usually different people have different taste. So, is quite subjective.

Now is week 11, there are 3 assignments to be submitted in week 13.

God knows we shall be safe or we are in danger now.

Tired out for nothing, this is what I have gained from this lesson.

I hate my soft heart that leads me to this edge.

If I can make up my mind to be with others, I wouldn’t be worrying like now.

I’m the one who to be blamed. Nothing to do with others.

aih....cham ah....why things changed so fast?

L.O.S.E.R

“Do you mind I’m a smoker?”

Was looking somewhere else and didn’t care so much for that moment…and reply,

“Why? It’s nothing lah ! I was grown in a smoking environment also.

My dad, my bro, my sis, uncle-uncle around me included my ah mah also smoke mah, nvm lah.”

I know. I was wronged at first.

Trying to act like Nana,wtf…feeling very unique to answer that? Feeling cool I’m different with other gals…shit!

Damn it, I regret now!

I should have say
“WHAT?! You’re smoking kaki? You better fuck off and eat with yourself.”

Aiya !!!!!!!!!!

What use to bring this back now?!

Hmm…

To be frank,

I’m not really concern about smoking so much actually…because he said he will quit it once he got marriage.

I’m not perasanted to think that he will marry me then I can witness he quit smoking.

But, at least,

He will quit it one day. I believe he can do it.

But now …haih…

Lotsa lotsa timesand lotsa things he refused to listen to me.

I did all that for his own good

But …

He just won’t understand,

He looks so weak now…

Every time I feel pain when I saw he’s suffering…it’s like a razor stabbing my heart…

Nothing I can do, but

cry

I feel I’m a loser that cant take good care of him,

I feel bad that I cant have some of his pain,

I feel sad to see he takes the pain by himself and nothing I can do for him…

I really feel tired…

Dear, would you listen to me?

Pls pls pls dun hurt yourself anymore ok?

You are loved, by me, by your family, pls don’t ever think pessimistically

God, if you hear me,

Please cure him, or transfer his pain to me if possible.

Never want to see him like that…

Sinful morn

I had a weird dream last night.

I dreamt of him.

Is it because his PM gave me lotsa impactful thoughts?

I wonder why…

I would have such a dream.

In that dream, the way he looks at me are totally different like usual.

No one knows what’s going on to both of us.

Only we know what is going on.

Perhaps, this dream will come true in the future?

Because I didn’t mention it to anyone?

I do hope anything happen to us somehow.

But greed dashes in my heart in and out; I wish I could have both of cheese cake and chocolate fudge.

Yah, I’m that kinda woman indeed.

Sinful morn on Monday …

Y2J i love eu~~~

Went to Y2J & EvanYo Digi Music Unlimited Live Concert yesterday.

It was really enjoyable and it's worth to sweat and Q all the way from 3.30pm.

P.s : the live concert start from 8.15pm...

Gosh cant imagine i actually waited for sooo damn long just to listen to your voice.

Y2J ah Y2J, i did all these oni for you lil chubby yuming and wild cat huang mei zhen o !

I love live band, and live concert! i duno why , i just lovin it ! ^^

and i'm in love in LIVE crazily..

everything regarding to L.I.V.E, i just can diggin in..haha...

i love LIVE badminton, live band, Live sex, live mourning..OPps..its a U channel.wahaha..

i was too excited lah.

their new song " 守护者" really nice! i cant stop playing it from my Homepage in FB.

although it is in a youtube, the sound quality is not so good, but i just keep repeating it over and over..

ahh~ nice song ! good job shen mu ! ^^

Btw, i'm goin to Genting with Lunzi and fellows GD4 mates tml.

feel high? nope..but drooling...

wahaha... as we are all well planned to have lunch buffet in Coffee Terrace.

wahaha...its been years i din step into that freaking expensive place.

but....since now having the lunch buffet in Coffee Terrace, then i shall gorge up all the food there ! hmph!

tml we depart from KL sentral at 10am like that, but meet up time is 9.15am..need to sleep now lu~

good nite everyone ！^^

The end of Year 2 Semester 2

it has come to an end again..i realize that i oni post a new achieve when my sem is goin to end. LOL...

am i that busy to post a blog? yea, i was. haha...now i'm still busy...

busy to relax, busy to plan where to go ,

busy thinking of where to club,

where to hang out,

who to go with,

what shall i do during sem break,

going back muar? or shall i just stay here?

ahh....i love sem breaks ! so many tiny lil thing that i would love and glad to bother.sweet troubles !!! wuhoo! sem break bonsai !